Tomorrow night on Comedy Central, my guest appearance with Daniel Tosh on Tosh.O.
I have a photo I was going to share with this post, but I decided to hold off until after the show tomorrow night since I am wearing the dress I did the interview and skit in and I don't want to ruin one second of it for you all.
Just a friendly reminder to please take to heart that this is a comedy show and the entire interview was designed for getting a few laughs at me, and I gave them the feed they used to create the entire episode from, so go on ahead, grab your popcorn, let your hair down sit back and enjoy the show.
Daniel was such an awesome host and he was told by the producer that I am an animal lover so he had his two dogs brought in to the studio to meet me when we were done filming, and one of them just could not stop giving me puppy kisses. <3
I do not have cable at home so I hope you all enjoy the show. :)
This has been and continues to be a very busy and exciting year, with two interviews done and two more to go, one in July (source unnamed) and one in September for a global outlet that specializes in trans stories.
I've been preparing for this for the four years I have been living as a woman, and we're getting to the final stages of sorting things out, but, it's such an honor and privilege to be able to tell my story as a trans woman to the world, sharing my journey, and talk about my M2F transition.
This Fall interview is very important to me and I am pleased to have been connected through the mysterious workings of the universe to the person whom I will be doing this Barbara Walters style interview with whom is also a M2F transgender individual herself so it will be fun.
I did not have the privilege of growing up with my father, taken away from him at age three by my mother; something I have always resented, and still do, but hey, it is what it is.
Every year since I was a child Father's Day has been a sad day for me. Part of me is angry at my mother and my late maternal grandparents for taking me away from my father, the person whom I spent many a night turning into many a year of crying myself to sleep wanting nothing more than to be with ...my father, to feel his fatherly embrace, to his see his smile, to hear his voice, listen to him laugh, wishing me a good night and running up to him to wake him up early in the mornings.
When I was thirty six years old, what should have been a happy time however, after about a year of searching for him with a few leads I had, meeting my father turned out to be a bitter sweet reuion.
I will never forget the day my life long dream of knowing my father came true and I feel like I harbor a little bit of resentment that I had to say goodbye to my father only five months after finding and meeting him for the first time since I was three.
I won't go into more details on this story, and when I got up this morning I said to myself that I would not make this post, but still today, after all those years of suffering from having such a big void left by the absence of my father, I want nothing more today than I get to meet my father again, to be able to look into his eyes, to see his smile, to hear the sound of his voice, to feel the warmth of his father embrace and perhaps even feel his kiss on my cheek or forehead.
I still cry today, as the shadow of my memory of him laying in bed having been rendered a vegetable for eight years, just as I cried and my tears fell to his face that last time I was with my father, knowing it would be the last time I saw him alive.
Happy Father's Day to my beloved father Richard Hernandez, may you RIP and wait for me on the other side of the rainbow cause you have a little girl here who wants nothing more than to meet you, and to tell you how much I love you.
Been down in the dumps all month long and while I am not going to say why, I will say that sometimes a girl just has to get her pretty and sexy on to make the day all right.
Sometimes when I just want to hide away it's the best time for me to not run and hide, but to remain here where I have the love and support of my friends, both those of you whom I've had the grand joy of meeting in person and those of you I've yet to meet.
I know that I can seem a bit wishy washy and perhaps even a little dramatic, but heck what do you expect from a hormonal woman, serpent, dragon thingy? lol
I also want to say that I appreciate all your love and all your good vibes and all your prayers.
Here's sending some sexy serpent love out your way from Oblivion. <3
One of my greatest life achievements is a personal achievement, and had been one of my most desired goals in life, that when I die, in a few more thousand years or so, I will not look like a man, but like a woman.
I'm not prepared to leave this world, just yet because I'm not done raising hell, but it is great to have the peace of mind today that I no longer look anything like the man I used to be.
One of my proudest achievements in life is having become a woman, just like Eve came from Adam's rib, Eva came from NoMan Pan.
When people go to my grave some day in the far away future and ask, what I looked like, no one will be able to say, "HE LOOOK LIKE A MAN!"
Featuring Body Modifications by Emilio Gonzalez, Double Ear Removal, "Double Van Gogh" and "Reptilian Nose" inspired by Lord Voldemort from Harry Potter.
